Coming Home

Well I haven't blogged on here in awhile.. but we don't have fast internet at home and I don't get to come to the hospital as often as I'd like.
Anyway. I thought I would share the big news with everyone.. WE ARE COMING HOME THURSDAY!! Schuyler and Sam are just counting down the hours. :)
Today since I've been up here it seems like poor Schuyler has just been getting more and more bad news. Originally they told him that since he is so young that he would get his mouth unwired in 4 weeks, but today he had a doctor come in and check him and he said it would probably be the full 6 weeks. That broke Schuyler's heart. It was even more humbling when they told him that he can't even take the x-ray on his mouth till he can stand up. I saw tears well up in his eyes when he told the doctor that he can't stand.. I cannot imagine.
Sam.. well he is just Sam. It seems that his personality is coming out even in his recovery as he slowly, but surely, gets better. Schuyler on the other hand seems to take leaps in his recovery, with small little set backs. Also typical of his nature. :) Both of my brothers are doing really well with their therapy. They both can get in out of bed by themselves, go to the bathroom, take showers, and put their own clothes on.
When I come up here it totally puts my life into perspective.. all the petty little things that I think I need and want look so stupid in the long run. All the fights I got into with my siblings and friends seem unimportant. Wearing makeup, new clothes, money in general seems funny to care about. My brothers struggle everyday with just the bare necessities. I feel like I should give everything up, so I can struggle along side of them. In fact isn't that what Jesus asked of us to do with our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ?.. To bear one anothers burdens. Its also what he asked us to do when following Him. To leave everything of our old selfs behind! To die is to live. To pick up our crosses and follow Him. But still I struggle with my selfishness and my vanity. It's a sin that keeps on sinning..:(
I don't know if a lot of people knew this but we didn't for a long time tell Schuyler and Sam about the loss of their friend Dan. We finally felt that with all the visitors coming and going that we should tell them. They took it pretty hard, and it was grieving all over again for the rest of us. Both felt guilt and frustrations about why it wasn't them instead, and why it happened to Dan. Sam especially has some distinct memories of the day of the accident that will probably forever haunt him. I pray that they are fully able to grieve and mourn the loss of their friend, but that that they hold no malice towards God. God does not ordain that these bad things happen, but they do because of sin. The sin that we chose. And if we trust and if we lean heavily upon Him.. they will only make us stronger! Everyday as I look and see the Robinsons living out their lives I gain strength and faith from them. God is that bright shining blue in their eyes and its beautiful to see. :)
Pray. That is all I can say. Life goes on but we are all changed. Nothing will ever be quite the same. We can choose to go down a path that will lead us far from Jesus. Or we can choose to lean upon Him and drink of His love and mercy that He eagerly is beckoning us to take! Thank you all for your prayers and visits. Everyone has been a blessing that we will not easily forget.
God bless! ~Sarah