In the pain there is healing

Wow!.. It's been a long week. I sit here in front of my computer and I'm so glad to be home!
This week has been filled with doctors appointments and phone calls like no one would ever believe. One day my mom was gone for maybe 3 to 4 hours, and in that short time she received 5 phone calls that related to the boys. It was crazy!
The days are long here as every moment is filled with something to do or something that needs to be done. My mom has a full time job just caring for Schuyler and Sam, and then on top of that she has 4 little boys who beg and tug at her sleeve for attention. She often gets overwhelmed and depressed, so pray for her as she bares this burden. It's hard for her to see Schuyler and Sam in pain day in and day out. And with every doctors appointment you expect good news and progress, but it seems like the only news they give you is just another appointment to go to. It's very discouraging. :(
We have already had a few parties and cookouts celebrating the homecoming of my brothers. But I think the most bittersweet one was that first night when Rhonda, Mike, and Tom came over. It was like we were all so happy!.. but still you could see the pain in their eyes, as they still mourn the loss of Dan. My heart and my prayers still go out to them! When I see them I feel as though there is nothing I can say. I hug them though, and we always whisper "I love you" and I think those 3 words say all that needs to be said.
Last sunday, as we were getting ready to leave Sam told my mom that he didn't know if he could go. He said that he couldn't bare to go and not see Dan sitting in his usual place. Life will never be the same. As the morning went on Schuyler was in alot of pain and he made the announcement that he wasn't going to go. We all understood and didn't push it. I went upstairs for awhile and when I came back down Schuyler was up and in his wheelchair. I was pleasantly surprised and I went and asked him why he changed his mind. He looked up and told me so confidently that I wanted to cry.. He said, "Sarah I need to go to church." He wasn't saying that "church" would help him, but the fellowship, the prayer, the Spirit was what he needed. How many times do we skip church because we are tired, busy, or just don't feel like going. Sam and Schuyler went with pain and grief. Again I say I will never complain again. They are a witness to me everyday.
Their recoveries are a slow process, but they are recovering. :) Keep praying for us and again thanks for all your help. Even just coming to visit is a blessing!
God bless.. Sarah
PS- I want to share a song with everyone. I think it will speak for itself.

Broken -Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home